Lonely

I lay in bed,
alone in the dark.
........

Oh! so many poems start like this, It's so boring.

too lazy to turn on the light,
and yeah, its night

Why else would I be in the dark unless you count occasional blackouts! any ways where were we? oh yeah, on the bed. right?

My computer goes 'woosh'.
I get up with a 'swish'.
I hit the keyboard with a 'tap'.
My monitor goes on with a 'flick'.

'woosh' is incoming IM alert. 'swish' is the sound of bed sheets. I have to 'tap' the ctrl key ofcourse to wake up the Darkmatter and 'flick' is the discharge in capacitors as the monitor resumes from the stdby.

Its just a silly fwd,
about some two month old girl,
down with some decease,
placed in suspended animation

So riddiculous that some times when I get this fwd, there is no contact details or anything. How can people be so stupid. Whats the whole point of the fwd then? I concluded she is kept in suspended animation because she had been two month old since last three years I was in college.

I call airtel,
that's driving me mental.
Sitting in the window sill,
I argue that I already paid the bill.

I pay them good 1500 bucks and they forget all about it after giving me a manual reciept. They don't update the account in database and as I result my outgoing was disconnected. And I have to sit in the window sill because thats the only place I would get a fair signal.

I go out for dinner,
no one would come along.
I jump on my bike and kick on,
Only to find many more already there.

So that's how lonely I feel. Got the point?

Why doesn't anyone come to my room?
Why should I be over joyed at the incoming IM?
Why should I be jumping out of the bed from sleep not wanting to miss it?
Why should I be infuriated to see the silly forward?
Why should I be mad at the prospect of disconnection of out going?
Why didn't I notice until two days later when my incoming too was disconnected later on?
Why should I be over joyed to hear the drums being played everytime I get an SMS?
Why should the ringing tone assigned to the one I love be titled 'delusions'?
Why do I want to call anyone I see to come along for dinner?
Why did I want to sit apart from the others, who came in earlier to the restaurent?
Why did I feel more full and contempt when I had a simple breakfast next morning with some one to keep me company?
Not the questions. They are answers. I'm not alone. I wouldn't feel so lonely in the middle of a dessert.
As a kid, when we lived in a colony on the outskirts of the city, I used to cry every sunday evening when I had to spend the whole day away from school. Why?
Even on a one week vacation, knowing my pathetic health, I make sure to visit as many friends and family members all around the state. Why?
Even if it means that I have to attend the classes with 104 fever, I take atleast three such vacations every sem. Why?
I'm not alone. I'm only lonely.