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Today I got an Invite for gmail. It looks nice but I really missed the ability to insert multiple contacts into the addressbook. You can only choose to send mail to a single contact. There is no option to select multiple contacts and compose a mail to all at once.
Today I participated in DA-IICT programmer of th month contest along with a Sundeep.
It is a disaster. Didn't do well.I could have done better had I taken enough care while coding. But hell, I took it too easy, just the way I always does.
Labels: college
I always dream of flying an rc helicopter. I decided to build my own and headed for the web. I got a couple of web sites heli project and another Indian site .
However I just realised that I require anywhere above 15 grand to get one I presently settled for this simulater. But I made up my mind to fly real one someday, better say sooner than later.
Labels: gadget
Today I had a little chat with Shruthi and her friends. We talked a little about my first crush. I just remembered about the account of the whole incident on my web site (now scrapped down :( ) and wanted to post it on this blog. Actually it looks like a letter addressed to her. That's how I thought I could put my feelings in their best. So here is how it goes...
Story of a full moon day ... ...and what follows
Hi…(Should I add 'dear' as ever)
I don't know whether I should write this or not!
I don't know what you will feel about this!
I don't even know whether you read this or not!
But I'm writing this to pour down my heart.
To start with we first met on the day of Inauguration of computer Lab in our school. When u waved your hand as I entered I realised I don't know you. That’s what solitude of twelve years made me. I’m even afraid to shake hands with you.
That evening when we were sitting at the nursery play ground, know what I thought of you? You are swinging in the dimly lit ground with your hair flying behind you. (I’m not a poet but this is how I can describe my experiences.) Stars twinkling in the sky and you on the land in a black sari with your face glowing like a second moon.
“She is an angel.”
That’s what I thought. I think you won’t mind it. I don't think I was ever mistaken about your beauty!!!
I might not have had a bike for my self if not for you. Remember? Once you laughed at me for not knowing how to ride a bike.
Later on when I saw you with your friends I saw a good friend in you. A friend in whom I can trust my feelings, One with whom I can share my emotions, a true FRIEND. This is the first time ever I wanted to make friendship with a girl. Oh, yes. I have some friends who are girls. But I never really tried to be friends with them. They are either childhood friends or ones who themselves made friends with me. So I tried to be very cautious. I’m shy even to hand your birthday gift to you. That’s why I made so much delay in it.
You have never seen the really careless mischievous rascal in me. The only time when it ever came close was when I joked (tried to joke to be precise) I would marry you. I felt so relieved that you took it light but still not able to settle down I pleaded sorry for that later on. I always tried to be decent and a good guy with you.
When you asked me “IF you had any such feelings towards me, don’t talk to me or contact Me.”, I was hurt, but reasoned my self ‘if only I had anything like that, but I’m safe’. That’s why I continued to come to you. But when I knocked your door to offer the sweet the way you are looking kind of down to me like a criminal I felt so bad for my self.
I wanted to talk to you and straighten out the things. I called you on when you are going back to your home. You instantaneously replied “bye”. “You are looking forward for me to get lost”, the very thought drove me crazy I’m going out of control. So I quickly said you’ll not see me again and came off before anything goes wrong. On my way I thought running away means accepting the wrong. That’s why I asked your sister to pass on the message that ‘I’m not running away’.
I don’t hold anything against you. You thought like an ordinary girl and behaved the same way. At least that’s what my sister told me. I still have a crush on you. You are my first and only crush till now. But I don't think you should be bothered about it. I have crush on many a geeky gadgets. But I never try to grab 'em all. I agree you are not the same as those things. You are much much more. You actually mean something to me. life is never the same without you. Me saying this is saying something because It's not in my nature to care about anybody. But you are some one really special. That’s what I meant earlier when ever I said I had a crush on you.
Whether you believe this or strike it out as bluff, its up to you. I’m not going to beg you to believe me for the simple reason that I don’t want to force your my thoughts on your opinion. I tried my level best, and that’s what I’m supposed to do I believe.
Looking forward for your friendly hand…
Yours ever,
Subbu
Yeah I did sign off subbu and I don't like everyone calling me that. But remember this is a letter to a girl so special to me. And those who are near and dear always call me subbu
Once more I did a terrible mistake. I compromised once and in a wrong place.Now every one expects me to compromise again and again. What ever group I choose, Who ever I associate with, I'm always subjugated. I'm always treated as if I'm born to obay. I have to show the world I can rule.... and better too.
It's not so simple either.When someone compromised for me, I will (not necessarily in return) compromise for him. But why should I compromise with someone else I don't give a damn about. For someone who doesn't care so much as to thank me and more over makes fun of me inspite of the help I've done just to please his ego, why should I compromise? Even if the request was made by someone I consider well worth my resources, Why should I compromise?
I suggested the same timing for meeting as Sandeep was asking now. But then I faced only rejection. Very painstakingly I rescheduled my day according to others time slot. Now why should I drop my appointments on a last minutes notice? Why should I even consider it? When my voice is not worth hearing, why should I care of other's Idiocity?
WHY?Labels: college
We had freshers today. I did a little work and showed off a lot.
I dared enough to approach Shruthi(my newly discovered cousin). What more, I even talked to her friends. It doesn't seem so tough afterall. But I can't believe it's so easy as I was loosing my relations somewhere else. Where I need the most.
Like I read in Shivkhera's "You can win", I'm manipulative, arrogant(which, it seems, I misunderstand as self esteem), greedy( It's like sea water, You grow thirsty as you drink more)a nd much more. But I don't realize it till I act up and it's all over. Not to push away the blame but I need to change.
So what is this? I'm an apt programmer and helloworld is the first program we code. Like the name goes this is my very first blog entry. So I just wanted to say "Hello world!!!"
Labels: prose
